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im not sick anymore---
im happy--
sweet--
wow--
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Fuck!---i dont want to go to work!
damnit---
well its that time bitches
wow---i cant make that sound cool at all
peace--im going to work--
urgh!
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| you broke me and you refuse to give up ur receipt |
[14 Jul 2005|12:38am] |
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I seriously think im insane. I feel like a downer at times and then at other times i dont know exactly what i feel. I don't think im one to get over things quickly---am i really okay right now--or am i just telling myself a lie so that my heart wont break anymore than it already has. I don't think ill ever know---i guess i cant really blame anyone for these feelings---its my choice on how i respond to things the way i do and i guess im just a selfish bastard. One things for sure---the Justin that acts like a dumbass for other peoples enjoyment is dead
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[03 Apr 2005|07:36pm] |
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check out my score on hotornot.com and see how hot i am as a zombie--- http://www.hotornot.com/r/?eid=BEOMHSK&key=XLD apparently im pretty damn ugly but not too ugly----i love being a zombie!
I also got a myspace a while ago and never posted it so here ya go
http://www.myspace.com/blankthoughts
and hopefully if i ever get this band thing going ill have band site pop up here in the next few months---we still need a new name--any suggestions?
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| The bird wont fly away---it insists on being with me |
[02 Apr 2005|01:54am] |
THIS FIRST SECTIONS IS HAS REALLY NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING SO SKIP IT IF U LIKE. ITS A STORY MY BEST FRIEND...THE BIRD
I was really tired last night. I went to bed at 3:30 and had a nightmare that was disturbing but it seemed that it wasn't far from the truth. I woke up to somthing strange though. I woke up to hear a tapping on my window. At first i looked around and wondered where it was comming from. I finally noticed a bird sitting outside my window. It wasn't a wood pecker as my mom insisted that it was not even seeing the bird, but it was one of those birds you see every day. It was sitting outside on the tree branch next to my bedroom window and was just tapping away on the glass. I looked at the clock and saw that it was about 10 and going on to 11. I needed more sleep. So i got up and walked to the window and the bird flew away. As i went back to sleep i was awoken again by The same noise. I looked out my window and sure enough there was the same bird poking away. I hated this thing and i looked at the clock and saw that i got a half an hour of more sleep. So i did the same routine and saw it fly away. As i turned back to my bed i decided that it was best that i stay up. I went and had my morning shower and as i had finished and was heading back to my room to get dressed, i saw the same bird again, tapping away. I coulnt take this tapping anymore so i just deiced to get up for the day hang out downstairs. I haven't been to my room since and im just wondering if this bird will come back.
Things started out shifty for my day. My dad got a raise and a pretty good bonus and decided he was going to take my mom to some really expensive resturaunt. So while he was gone i was trying to figure what i was going to do for my evening. I tried to make plans but they seemed to fall apart like they always do. So kait and kelly insisted that we went and got coffee. To tell you the truth i wasn't looking forward to it. I was already in a shitty mood and the last thing i wanted was to go out and drive in the rain for some coffee---even though im addicted to it. But now that i went i couldn't have been happier that i did. A lot of my friends have been trying to cheer me up over break and i appreciate all you guys for trying to make me feel better. Kait, kelly, and I talked about a few things..not much but it helped a lot. I cant quite put my finger on it but tonight was a night that i have actually felt relaxed.
After coffee i followed Kate and Kathy to go pick up Kat...(the k.k.k trio) to go see erics show that was canceled. (dude im gunna get you us a show, even if it has to be in my backyard, were gunna rock it out and become famous together) Since the show was cancelled i ended up spending my time with the KKK trio. (thats what im calling you guys from now on) We had fun playing music and just talking. I dont know why but you guys really cheered me up and i feel that things are going a lot smoother with my mood.
So lessons i learned tonight is let nature take its course. I feel that these past few weeks ive tried to control things that i was not capable of controling. I just need to sit back and take life as it is, shitty or great theres nothing i can really do about it. Yea i might still be Little upset about things but im going to try to just sit back and let life take its course. Its going to be hard at time but i know with the friends that i have now that i can make through. Thanks all you guys--you mean the world to me
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[22 Mar 2005|04:54pm] |
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this is gunna be a wierd entry for me---once agian----but i dont want to be stuck at home on spring break---whos up for getting coffee sometime--chit chat stuff?
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| Last Public entry |
[18 Mar 2005|11:55pm] |
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yea i dont want certain people that i dont like to read some stuff so from here on out its gunna be friends only. Leave a comment if u wanna be a friend 9 times out of 10 you'll get by. Im like the bouncer----and im stupid-peace
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| time flys united airlines |
[07 Mar 2005|10:00pm] |
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Havent written anything here in a while thats because i've been really busy and just really hate my old computer. Well since i got this new one, things should be going better so hopefully ill be writting back more often. A lot of things have happend this weekend. I've caught my brother doing more stupid stuff and i also got paid 120 bones for taping a wedding. This past sunday I spent a lot of that money with Kathy. I got 2 cds at best buy and also went to the mall and bought a poster of Johnny Depp. I think my dad thinks that i might be gay for getting a poster of him but i figured hes my fav actor and i needed somthing to decorate that empty wall in my room. After that we went to disc replay where i bought a dvd that i am highly ashamed of. The only thing i will tell anyone is that its a music dvd. and then when i got home i won a snes of ebay. So sunday was an overall good day.
Its come to my mind more often now that i love to get out of the house. I realized that for the past 2 years of my life ive spent a lot of time home watching tv, eating, sleeping, and doing homework. I just have really started to hate routine. So this past friday me and my guitarist went to an open mic somewhere. We were limmited to two songs but instead we played three (im such a rebel). Two of the songs we played were completly stupid songs about A.D.D and homeskool. The people who have memorized these songs keep wanting us to play them and ive come to hate my own creation. Now i know how God feels. Just playing with that last comment but i dont kno i just really like it when people take intrest in things i do. I guess thats somthing i need to work on. I feel as if im always wanting the focus to be on me and ive realized i dont want to be that kind of a person.
Finally my friend lee, aka, my guitarist is letting my buddie vince join the band. Vince is in 8th grade but he is seriously one of the most tallented drummers ive heard that i actually know. Were hopping to record this summer and maybe get some shows by late spring but things are still looking iffy. Were thinking about changing our name to Alexandria Drive to somthing else so if anyone has any ideas just throw out a few names.
this is my buddie lee. I threw some egg in his hair--im such a good friend
Well im done
Peace out to all the homies in the crib
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| all Knocked up |
[10 Feb 2005|10:51pm] |
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Im in a really good mood right now. Dont know why, but i feel that i should get one of those i am loved pins....just playing but ummm if ur feeling down just read a coupel of my knock knock jokes......ull realize how stupid i am and it will make u feel better about urself.
knock knock
whos there
"the"
"the" who
The who-------great band
Knock Knock
Whos there
"basketball"
"Basketball" who?
pssss.....in other words basketball whopssss---aka--hoops
Knock Knock
who's there
"flangerificky"
"flangerificky" who?
dont make up your own words.
Yea so those are just a few.....anyone feel like giving me some new material.....im all ears.....
love ya all
peace out to all my hommies in the crib
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[08 Feb 2005|06:24pm] |
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Yesterday i wasnt feeling all too well. It was one of those nights where you have the huge headache behind your eye and you cant breath out your nose. So the whole night i felt drowsy...due to the nyquill i took. I finally got to sleep after an hour or two of lying down. and when i woke up i saw that the time was 7:30. I thought to myself "great now im gunna be bitched at for being late for school" but instead my mom thought it would be a good idea if i stayed home. It didnt cross my mind then but after a while i realized that i had a huge speech due today and i havent even started anything. So the whole afternoon i have spent preparing for it and once i got almost everything ready i realized my printer doesnt work. so i guess ill work on the rest of it tommorow at school and take a late grade.
also this morning i spent a lot of time thinking. I watched tv and i came across the show "ambush makeover" where they take radom people off the streets and give them new looks. The people who went through these makeovers kept saying that they're new people and that things are going to be so much better for them. After a while of being bored i turned to Oprah and her whole program was on people who are addicted to plastic surgery. Then it crossed my mind that it seems that all people are so worried about today are their looks. I got kind of pissed because its like, in order to be happy in life you have to be pretty. The more i thought about it the more it made me upset. sometimes it feels that i go somewhere in this world today withoout living up to other peoples expectations, (except when i hang out with my close friends). The kind of kids i really have grown to get sick of are the kind of kids that think your a loser if where this type of clothing or if you listen to certin type of music. Theres this stupid punk rocker kid in one of my classes who says that he's an individual. I took a good hard look at him and just laughed because he was wearing chuck taylors and an antiflag t-shirt. I told him that he looks like every other punk rocker in the whole school and he said he started the chuck taylor trend. Dont get me wrong, you can like punk rock and wear chuck taylors (even i have a pair) if you want, but dont be putting others down saying there trendy when its almost imposible not to dress somewhat like someone else.
Well thats all basicly the only thing im trying to get across is be who you want to be. If being so called "trendy" makes you happy then do it
Peace out to yall
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| next time keep my mouth shut |
[03 Feb 2005|08:33pm] |
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hey----amazing new features all done by my friend Mac!....good job mac and thanks, u really made my day.
Speaking of my day, today was a day that wasent for me. I went through school today and i felt that i've painted an image of myself to be the dumbass. I've felt that no one can take me seriously. I learned a lot last night by talking to friends. I think my problem with myself is i dont really like to talk about my feelings. And things bother me and i just put them in the back of my mind and last night they all just kind of exploded infront of my face. And sadly i still dont think i've learned my lesson. Like today some kids were bothering me and i just sat back and took it all with no objections. So now that i've felt this way its really hard for me to get back into my normal mood. But i dont know....maybe it will all blow over. Im gunna go and finish my radiohead picture for kathy.
Peace
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[03 Feb 2005|05:52pm] |
he justin its mack..just lettin u know i finished ur layout. obviously....and if u dont like ur user picture or icon thingy go to manage->user pictures and i have 3 on there that were ok. u can change it hter too or just have none...w/e u want. if u want me to change or fix nething else just tell me.
later
-mckenzie.
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[31 Jan 2005|07:21pm] |
Today was just one of those days when your in a good mood and ur really not sure why? It might have been the 6th period lunch switch, or it could be the fact that i didnt really get pissed at anyone today. But whatever it is...its great.
Tommorow i get to go on a in school field trip. Its for history and i get to miss 1-4 periods and eat 5th lunch. As fun as it sounds i dont think ill have any since ill be seeing pictures of millions of Jews. (hollacost)--i think thats how you spell it. Hopefully it wont ruin my day.
Me and James haven't hung out in a while and i feel really bad about that since we've been bestfriends since 3rd grade. He said we're having a guys night tommorow. Eric, James, Me and some other kid who i forgot who he said are gunna go get ice cream so that should be fun. I felt really bad that i forgot his birthday agian. I think im gunna make him somthing tonight and bring tommorow to make it up to him.
peace out to all my hommies in the crib
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| grow up! and have fun! |
[30 Jan 2005|03:31pm] |
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Alright so saturday came and i woke up and waited for a call about throwing movie night at my place. This movie night would be not an ordinary one since the person who wanted to throw this party....natalie......wanted to see videos that i have made with my friends (Mostly with James and Lee). But that call never came till 8:00 at night when it was too late, so i was stuck at home just chillin. But its kool tho since i got a call from my bud lee. He wanted me to stay over at his place for the night. When i arrived at his place, He was still at work and his mom was home alone. So i hung out with my one of my best friend's mom. I talked with her for about an hour. I felt really wierd talking to her at first because i ended up making bows and ribbon flowers for her, all witched i learned in floral this past semester. But while i was waiting for lee i ended up drawing in my skcetch pad. The only decent drawing i have is the radiohead cover to hail to the theife. Well lee finally came home from work and we went to his room and practiced music for a while. We worked on a new song that we are playing for his sister's wedding. When we finished with that we went to bed. I had a really hard time falling asleep last night. I think my body was very tierd but my brain was awake. I found myself thinking about a lot of things that night. One that really bothered me. I started to realize in a littel over 2 years i will have been done with high school and almost all my friends will end up going to colleges. I really hate thinking about these things because i want to keep the friends that i have now. I hate change. Hopefully it wont bother me for too long.
This morning i woke up at lee's and we headed off to church. Church now a days is getting all too routine. I mean it used to be lots of fun because we would do crazy things and everyone was excepted by everyone but now im just growing tired of it. hopefully i start having fun sometime agian.
After church i was gunna do band practice but my gutiarst couldnt make it. It really pisses me off cause i always have to hear him complain about how he wants to practice yet he can never make it. he says next week we will practice but i doubt it....but will see.....thats basicly everything thats happened.
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[28 Jan 2005|09:12pm] |
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I'm so bored!!!! I want to just rip out my hair and make a wig and then wear the wig......then at least i would be doing somthing! Im so lazy. Im just sitting around the TV is on, im hungry and im too lazy to get up and change the channel or get food........tonights been sooooo blah. I kind of feel like drawing but even that takes work. ummmm i think ill just haf to get up.......sigh! ok well then.............ummmm....yea
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| the start of confusing subjects |
[28 Jan 2005|05:19pm] |
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For those of you who don't know me i’m Justin. I've also been called J, J Dawg, Tall and Dr. Love. and those of you who really kno me, also know i havent really been called "Dr. Love" (pause for laughter). Yea so in case you haven’t noticed I’m extremely different but i'm an easy going guy and don’t get pissed to easily. I’m in a band that most of my friends haven’t heard because we’ve only had 3 shows. And all 3 of them were not in Naperville. So today I’m just chillin waiting for someone to call because I don’t want to be stuck at home but if that turns out to be the case ill be fine. I’ll probably end up going out and buying a cd or something. Right now my aol account is being gay so im writing this offline and then pasting it later. That’s one of the only things that piss me off. We have dial up connection. And on top of that we have basic television. I’ve never seen an episode of south park, jackass, or any other tv shows. I end up watching late night and simpsons…….im really starting to hate tv……one of my best friends. but so now im just gunna sit back and wait for a call…….hopefully my Friend lee (from Bolingbrook)….check in from time to time and you’ll get some intresting stories with that kid. Peace
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